Pardon me, if this doesn't all make sense. I just really need to get it out. More for myself than anyone else. Especially since, it's not like I can actually say this to my parents.
You constantly make me feel like I'm not good enough. I'm not perfect enough. I don't try hard enough to be perfect for you. Because I'm the middle child. And I'm supposed to be perfect so you don't have to worry about me. I get B's, and you want A's. I work 1 job, and you want me to work 2. I work 15 hours, you want me to work 20. I take 12 credits, you want me to take 16 or 18. I empty the dishwasher, you want me to load it, too. I'm too fat. I'm too thin. I don't wear enough make up to hide the imperfections. "Don't wear your hair like that, it looks dirty." "You've really gained weight." I spend a lot of time here. I don't spend enough time here. "You have bags under your eyes." "I can't believe you eat that. It's so fattening."
I'm not allowed to EVER be frustrated. With either of you. Pardon me, if I don't agree with everything you say or do. You look at the stuff I got for the project for a grand total of 15 seconds before Shooting. It. Down. "I don't think it will work for this project. Besides, I think we have ehough with what I already got." Just like that. Mine is bad. Yours is good. Well you can have your project, your way. Because I'm not doing it. You can do it without me. You apparently don't need my ideas or input anyway. It will be fan-freaking-tastic without my help. Because I'm not good enough.
And I never will be.